5.11

I hate myself alot today.

Why am I so stupid?

Why do I put so much trust into others? Why do I expect people to trust me so much?

What the hell am I even doing?
I'm so stupid. I'm so goddamn stupid.

I can't speak up for the one thing I work my ass off to protect.

I can't even bring myself to tell people about it.

I'm pathetic.

I'm the worst.

I can't prove anything to anyone.

I can't prove anything to myself.

I'm such a fucking asshole.

I don't deserve kindness, so I need to stop expecting it.

I'm only here to please and protect.

I seek no gain for what I do.

And I guess I need to come to terms with that.

God, I hate myself today.