It's been quite a while since I've made a post, huh?
Today, I make a fresh start. I have a new look, and hopefully a new outlook on life.
A good friend told me yesterday "You're really angry lately...I really hate seeing you like that." and it sort of clicked with me.
I sort of got caught up in the rush of being mad at someone, and for that, I'm sorry. Being angry doesn't suit me, and it still doesn't feel right.
Today, I make a new start. And I'm going to leave the past behind. The bad times did outweigh the good in many aspects, but not the good times that it brought me and will come. I met my best friends because of it after all (lookin at u taro & squeegee). My past is not part of who I am. I really do like how it shaped me--sure, my anxiety got worse and I'm probably a bit more doormatty than I'd like to be, but I really like caring for people, especially in this day and age when others don't bother to care for themselves.
You know, maybe I am just here to help people, but I think now, I'm okay with that. Recognition was fun, but I don't need it anymore. It's really nice to just sit and observe. It's really nice to just do things because they're nice to do. I think in a world like today, we need more people doing things just because it feels right, not because it's necessary or whatever.
I love everyone in my life a whole lot and I'm not going to be mad anymore. I love life, and everything is absolutely wonderful. The world truly is a beautiful place.
Anyways, I should go get ready because I'm gonna go pick up some job applications today!
Wish me luck!
